After Switching Therapists

Breathless,lunch-less,my quaking bog bodyspills what it can,fills the room with fear. Arthur says,“You fear what you don’t know.Once you know itit will no longer besomething to fear.” He listens again and says,“I could be wrong,but I think this is aboutanger and power.” I exhale, smile.I can breath again.Imagine, all this crazy, scary shitwhittled downto two common nouns. from Excavation, poems by Janet Jerve published by North Star Press., 2013.  Janet has taught poetry in Minnesota public schools and worked as a writer/editor for nonprofit organizations.

The Impact of Making an Impact

We hit bottom. Then we hit bottom again. Then we wake up and we are 30-years-old and wonder, “where did I go?” How did I arrive to waking up in the gray damp squalor of a jail cell when last I was paddling an orange We•no•nah canoe to the far, far end of the lake. Through the Tunnel of Love and into the shallows with pancake sized lily pads and one two three four five painted turtles sunning themselves on a withered log. I left off somewhere. Where did I end and the party and chaos begin? Ah, yes. Boston. … Continue reading

Collegiate Recovery Communities

Collegiate Recovery Communities

  Collegiate Recovery Communities (CRCs) are alive and kicking up their heels at the following college campuses. Didn’t think there was much fun to be had in recovery? Simply surround yourself with fellow sober fun-seekers and you will be amazed before you are halfway through. If you are at a point in life to get the grey matter moving again, check out the schools below. Give a call, plan a visit, and immerse yourself in education and recovery. Let the future begin again. Augsburg College The StepUP Program Minneapolis, MN 612-330-1405; stepup@augsburg.edu The College of St. Scholastica CLEAN Recovery Services … Continue reading

Sentimental Education: In the Rooms

Emily Roiphe Carter

It’s an old crack, but when I heard it for the first time, it was the first time I’d heard it: “You don’t need rehabilitation, you need habilitation.” It was true, until I had to get sober I had neglected to learn almost all of the things that most people my age were already doing by reflex. One of these things was sitting in a room with other people without being chemically fortified. Until my first AA meeting I did not know how to comfortably sit in a social arrangement with other humans. I either tried to get all the … Continue reading

Don’t Just Stand There – Do Nothing!

Don't Just Stand There - Do Nothing!

“He does not seem to me to be a free man who does not sometimes do nothing.” — Marcus Tullius Cicero, Roman lawyer and statesman; 1st century BC The letter confirming the August 1986 10-day retreat in California’s high-Mojave Desert contained the usual details about weather, suitable clothing, facility, housing, and this: “During the conference, there will be no television, radio or newspapers. Office telephone is for emergency use only. Please ensure that all matters at home – family, pets, job, etc. – will be taken care of during your absence so that you can devote full attention to the … Continue reading

Real Places: The Retreat

John Curtiss

As I pulled into the driveway at The Retreat in Wayzata on a rainy, weekday morning, I quickly discovered every parking spot was taken. As I squeezed my not-so-compact car into a not-so-legitimate parking space, my curiosity grew. “Who are all these people here? Why is it so busy? What exactly does this this place offer?” My questions would soon be answered by the caring, enthusiastic staff at The Retreat. History Lesson from John Curtiss To understand what The Retreat is, and why it was created, one needs to know about John Curtiss, the co-founder and president of The Retreat. … Continue reading

Encourage Attitude of Gratitude in Children

Attitude Of Gratitude

What does it mean to feel gratitude? More than just being thankful, a feeling of gratitude can help you connect with the people in your life and the world that surrounds you. Learning to practice gratitude as an adult is often deliberate action, but if we can show a child how to feel gratitude, they would gain an invaluable gift for a lifetime. by Monisha Vasa My brain knows that gratitude is important. I know when I am in a state of gratitude — aware of my blessings, small and big, I feel happier and less alone. I feel more … Continue reading

From the Publisher: to Dolores

Julia Edelman's mother Dolores

This issue of The Phoenix Spirit is about retreats. This is when I usually blather on about retreats being my favorite topic of the year and that there exists a retreat to fit every budget, temperament, and shoe size. But this year is different. While all of the above is true, I’ve ventured, rather involuntarily, into a retreat of a different stripe this past spring. Dolores, my 88-yearold mom, passed away on May 4. Her death was both expected and unexpected. People ask such things, and it’s a good question to ponder. Mom was declining rapidly with her physical health, … Continue reading

In a World Without Empathy

John Driggs

Imagine living in a world where no one is capable of understanding anybody else’s feelings. In such a world, someone could grasp how you feel only if he or she had exactly the same experiences you’ve had. If they hadn’t had those experiences they would have no idea what you are talking about. Consequently, you’d likely feel all alone in your solitary circumstances. Of course then you would have no way to feel loved since the experience of true love is about someone else accepting us as we really are and not for how we match up to their expectations. … Continue reading

Entering Silence

“Nowhere can man find a quieter or more untroubled retreat than in his own soul.” Marcus Aurelius Where do you go when life gets to be too much? When your days overflow with tasks and decisions? When resentments simmer and bubble while violins sing woeful laments? Where do you go? Life ebbs and flows. As tasks overcrowd my hours, the elasticity of a day stretches only so far before it snaps back. Some days everything goes according to my plan and I confidently step out on the ledge of arrogance thinking, “I’ve got it licked now! I can manage my … Continue reading

The Retreat: Not Just for Weekends Anymore

When I first got married, my wife and I moved to a tiny hamlet in eastern Montana. It was her hometown and she had a job at a local community college teaching public speaking. My job was at a rinky-dink bank playing customer service rep and twiddling my thumbs in the back room pretending to work with the computers. It wasn’t bad, but definitely not a dream job. At least I had plenty of time after work to drink when wifey was off teaching in the evenings. We belonged to a church where my wife had been baptized as a baby … Continue reading

Rock the Boat

Rock the Boat: How to Use Conflict to Heal and Deepen Your Relationship     By Resmaa Menakem      Hazelden Publishing      Menakem writes, “We look to our partner for harmony and safety and familiarity. A long relationship provides these some of the time. But it also provides friction. Friction-not harmony or safety-is an engine of growth.” Drawing on his 25 years of experience as a licensed social worker, mediating families, including military and civilian couples, he gets right to the point describing the reality of relationships, “This book is about choosing to grow up.” He uses stories from actual clients and composites of … Continue reading

Warrior Goddess Training

Warrior Goddess Training

Warrior Goddess Training: Become the Woman You Are Meant To Be     By Heather Ash Amara     Hierophant Publishing      Amara states that women were “trained to seek our wholeness and value and to find love through others.” She was trained in Toltec wisdom and shamanism. Now she wants to share her wisdom and help woman be so much more. She wrote this book based on a year-long program she created in 1997called Thirteen Moons. In the first of 10 lessons, she encourages the reader to “Commit to You” and learn to “love all of who you are, flaws and all.” In the … Continue reading

Simply Open

Simply Open

Simply Open: A Guide to Experiencing God in the Everyday     By Greg Paul     Nelson Books     In his newest book, Paul states, “Prayerfully read this book and ask God to open your eyes, open your ears, open your nostrils, open your mouth, open your hands, open your mind, and open your heart.” He describes using the five senses while reflecting on the cycle of releasing, receiving, becoming, and doing. Each chapter closes with items to remember, such as this from the chapter on touching: “We are not likely to be touched or held ourselves, nor to touch or hold others in … Continue reading